why oh why? what's this trying to tell me?

ok...

a week after my final cabin crew interview, i received an email saying that my application has "not been successful"... what the ?!! --

it's been two weeks since i got the news, and looking back, i'm quite surprised at how lightly i accepted the situation...yes - the dream of carts, uniforms, life vests, travel and service to air travelers has to be temporarily set aside...but this also makes me believe that maybe i should be doing something else...perhaps this was a nudge towards a different direction...

oooooh...

where do we go now?